Building on a dream

As you may know,
I am dreamer.
And I live my life in a passionate pursuit to follow my heart's passion and visions I have pondered.

Here I am,
in the midst of a life crossroads where I am indeed challenged to overcome any thoughts that are second guessing where we have landed ourself; in my hometown of Chatham Ontario, assimilating the learnings I have embraced over the past year, and hanging onto a dream that came into my life journey while I lived in the west coast, pursuing filmmaking opportunities.

I guess I will say that; I have found it a bit difficult to make decisions on what was best for me to do: pursue the pageant that is indeed part of my life, dreams journey;
or step back, to give my self some breathing space to soak in who I am, to enjoy the journey of living life (such as observing from a park bench).. ..as well as build on the skills that allow me to ready myself for what I want to accomplish, and more importantly, the solidarity, stableness and strength of who I want to be. Living wholesome, living centered, balanced,...

I guess it could go both ways;
delve in!
jump in the opportunity, enjoy it, learn from it, see if it takes you to a world stage
or
be challenged!
challenge yourself to overcome (the desire of being excited about) something external that will motivate you;....and rather find: BECOME the happy, contented, motivated person within you. and understand that an entire future of a world stage awaits . . . .

Dear love;
when i look at the journey, even of just this whole pageant thing...
at first i thought of building myself, learning spanish, being physically active and doing/filming good deeds
then, going to meetings, i was excited! I Loved being Miss Universe
then i wanted to create and inspire through WHITEfeather, throw an event,...
being frustrated for not receiving funds, i was on the beach, (the wine journals handed out, met Eug., told a year or so to release my mind would be good)
--- all seemed well and i was for it
and then out one evening, after a chat, hearing 'then time isn't right'

*however,
also serendipity, nye miss am.
and so many beautifull things that inspire
the loving 'ignite the/ living the dream'

*african, stix, spanish
*african queen, miss uc; wholesome, beautiful, elequance, energy to fall in love with
accomplished., good deeds.

thank you
west side mr destiny my journal sweet november pipe dream
and all in between
for being with me, guiding me, inspiring me
and letting me know,
'all issz well'

Love! as we are here,
building, living and loving, giving, happy...now and the journey that continues

Into reality of our Dreams

For a few years now I have been on a journey.
A journey of self discovery, a journey of soul searching and quest for my passions, thoughts and beliefs,
a journey to pursue dreams that were ignited with a vision within my life's awakening and inspiring moments.

Through the past year I have been full force in an exploration phase, ready to pursue opportunities that came my way... and excited to do so!
However, recently, I have found that I have been challenged in my own life to further strengthen myself, my reactions and decisions towards life. Especially in regards to direction and when to embrace new opportunity. I am finding I am now at a phase for assimilating the learnings and exciting experiences that I have gained in the past year, while building skills and strengths to take on the years to come.

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Amidst opportunity, and the desire to follow a destiny of my dreams, I have felt the strenuous efforts of weight on a heavy heart and shoulder. Fortunately, through it all I have made the best of efforts to hold my mind in recognition that all is opportunity to see growth within my choices and abilities to make the most of what I am faced with.

It hasn't exactly been an easy ride,
it has been one of a challenge to look ahead at what is best for me to do now,
while sincerely making the effort to open myself to soul, with deep breath and conscious efforts to commune in short meditations...thoughts that help me to center myself and feel balanced.

I have said before,
to lead a life in pursuit of noble things, is a task of acceptance and inner growth...

and in this recognition,
I choose to smile at this whole process of journeyed living.
My goodness, it is a journey of testimony to the human spirit, of which I make it my ambition to inspire within all I will have the priviledge of sharing my learnings with.

Much Love!
Thank you for listening,
I am so happy to be here,
as I continue my own growth and journey into realities of my dreams.

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I also wish to note, that in my life at the present moment, I am surely in a place of uncertainty of where I am headed, yet I am focusing my energies to talents and skills that will provide me with a -now- foundation for helping build my dreams as realities.

I have been, and am lucky to be spending time with my family (dad, rita weekend, with moments of walking, finding canadian paper on the tree, and watching 'African Queen', to have seen it on tv the next day, following a Miss Universe Canada news story, and Lady Gaga video update,...as well as movie recommendation for 'Alice in Wonderland :)', and oscar worthy Sandra Bullock performance :).
Love life, my family and this sudden universal occurance for allowing me to GROUND myself,...a sense of grounding, I'm finding, is extremely beneficial at this time.

Now, I am in Chatham spending time with Mom and Chuck, and surely my sisters/brother (love u all sooo much!!, and janner thanks especially for the chat that 'saved my life' :) )

Cheers to where this *present* journey leads us to,
and with an honoring to us as we embrace many new beginnings with an honest, pure, open heart.
Thank you LOVE!

Let us trust, Live, Love and Be the wholesome person that we are, and especially evermore becoming, with talent, heart and soul...ready to perform, speak, inspire with all that we Love to Be

Namaste, Allways Love

feel it search it find it love it live it
always continue to explore it learn it dream it become it
be it
enjoy the journey

awaken and ignite to a vision of dreams. build yourself, sew talented seams. become your solid ground upon steady feet; open and ready for anything as opportunity and Dreams Reality meet. there are winding roads where peaceful rivers flow. ready yourself as you soar through dreams you know

-Jocelotuslilly
haahhah love it

aka
Jocelyn